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Saturday, December 2, 2006

Today is performing class again.Sigh...I went to meet Sok Mun,Jun Ru and Jason for lunch altough I did not take anything.All of us left the stall furiously and Sok Mun started cursing the Indian workers at the prata stall.They did not return their change and that stupid old man still dare to act dumb.Oh wait, he is dumb!Then we went to the library to return books and on the way we crapped around talking about shit and pee.

Performance class is super long today! 3 hours plus we have Singapore arts scene after that its like 5 hours in the small place.Wondered how I survived.Performance class will be cancelled next week anyways I am not going.I got a battle to go to.I hope I survive.Today I had totally no mood to play my piece.I just forced myself to play the whole song and i quickly left the stage.I am so screwed!I thought I did badly but the others say overall I was okay except that I am abit stiff.I have this bad habit of stiffness when it comes to playing and when I am nervous.Anyway I was quite displeased with one of someone's comment today.The person actly compared me to someone I know.I hate comparison comments.It stinks!FUCK!

During Singapore arts scene lecture, I sat alone for half the lesson until Kai Xing came and saved my life.I just realised that without Qing lun, Sok Mun and Richard in class,I feel out of place like I do not belong.They were not here for lesson today.It has already been a month since I came to this school and this class and I don't know most of the people in class.MADNESS!Very few people bothered to introduce themselves or try to get to know thier new classmate.Seriously I feel very rejected from this class.I really don't know what to do.Wei Kang told me he knew everyone in his class by the first week.Whats wrong!AM I THAT AWFUL?

FUCK I HATE ME...



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