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On friday night,I was in school practicing my ruan and waiting for my classmate Sok Mun to finish practicing because her roommate went back to Malaysia.So I practiced for about an hour then I kind of got bored.So I as usual rolled on the chair a few rounds around the corridor then went back to practicing.Then Jeremy Koh came out went his bag and was getting ready to go home.He hardly practiced for an hour.I guessed it was not his day.

I called my teacher, wanting to ask if she is free to have lesson with me on Saturday as I am going to be rehearsing in the recital studio for competition.She did not pick up. I called at least five times.I thought that she was angry with me because I did not go for lesson the last week.I was damn sad and worried that she does not want me anymore.It has happened before where she scolded me on the phone till I cried but that was when i just started learning with her.I am also having mixed feelings and even doubts about my teacher.I have been hearing from others alot of bad things about her.But I really dont think its true.I also always hear from Wei kang that my teacher is a bitch.What can I do?My teacher has always been so good to me and recently I feel that I get less care from her.Not that I am jealous.

Instead of sending Sok Mun home, I went to play dota with Lian Wei, Richard, Andy and Qing Lun.I am so sorry Sok Mun! I thought that after a stressful day, all of us deserved some fun.But I was fucking wrong.Qing Lun pissed me off so much that I did not talk to him for at least an hour.He had a bad day during his lesson earlier on and he vented his anger on me. ME LEH! We were on the losing end of the game he kept saying "aiyo jonathan why like that, aiyo aiyo!". FUCK I almost punched his face.Then when he was on the winning team, his mood became better.FUCK YOU QING LUN! We went home after that.

SATURDAY
I got up early and I recieved a sms from my teacher! It stated come at 2pm for lesson.So I got ready ate some crap and left the house.I forgot to bring my ruan home yesterday so I went to school to get it before going for lesson.Wasted like an hour of my life.Then when I arrived at her house I thought I was late. I wasn't! Xiu Ying was still inside.When it was my turn, my teacher told me to sit down first and tune while she went to get something.When she got back,OMFG I got a long lecture from her almost an hour.I think she enjoys lecturing me,she like to do it for long hours and if I cry even better.But this time I didn't.

So I had lesson for two hours! GOSH was I tired. Then she ask me if I am going to watch the International Competition for Chinese Orchestral Composition.I said no I have no money.One of our friend won a prize in this competition,Wang Chen Wei.Plus, Eric Watson my aural and music technology teacher won 1st prize.WOW! My teacher took out ten dollars from her wallet and gave it to me.She told me to go buy a ticket to watch. -o-" I was so touched. I called Wei Kang to go watch too, he likes to compose too.I left for PAYCO for their practice.I'm helping out as guest musician in their upcoming concert.

When I got there, they told me that I had to solo infront of the orchestra.They say its tradition for them to do it before competition. FUCK to the power of ten! I was not ready la! I tried to cook up some excuse "Im just a guest musician!".FUCK ten mintues later I was on the platform performing.I got nervous again but this time it was better then performing class.PHEW~ After the terrorizing performance, I went to watch the concert.It has been a long time since I sat at the audience seat.When I to my seat, I saw my long lost friend sitting infront of me. Hi Thomas.
Then when I look to the right.OMG! Its Mr. Adams!

The concert was quite exciting I must say. Chen Wei's Sister Island, Eric Watson's Tapestries: Time Dances and Law Wei Lun's Admiral of the Seven Seas were my favourite the rest were like crap.Especially the one when the conductor started screaming as part of the effect.eeeewwww!After the concert,the SYCO peeps reunited again for supper.As for Thomas you left after you agreed to come!Eating with them was so fun.Especially with Rit Xu Kai Xiang and Maestro Wong De Li Decric~.They were fucking funny I cant help but play along.We must do it again!

After rotting there for quite some time,we decided to leave.We tried hailing for cab but we waited damn long.Some of us became like zombies trying to flag the cab.After about half an hour and lots of photo taking we finally got a cab!I am HOME!I opened the gates and door and FUCK to the power of whateva you can power! My uncle's dog is here! She is one FUCKING BITCH! She barks at everything and shit and pisses like 10 times a day! FUCK you man can't you be lik my cute dog! Hi NIKE! Faster go home madam. If you dare piss in my room, no tv for you bitch!

I am not angry with Qing Lun anymore and I will never hurt an animal,especially dogs...lucky you bitch!

Jonathan blogged at
[1:47 PM]

I am so stress! My hair is falling off,including my leg hairs...I reach home from school at 12 almost everyday from monday to sunday 7 days a week, 168 hours,10080 min,lazy to continue(jeremy's fault).I practice at night in school when it is peaceful and I have the whole corridor to myself.Plus, I can roll around on the chair with those wheel thingys,so fun.But seriously I have alot to think about and you know I hate to think...
8 december 2006, a day that is slowly arriving...the day when I either gain fame and glory or piss and shit.Yes the stupid National Chinese Music Competition is back.This time I am in it.How lucky of me.I am super duper freaking shrieking not ready for it.My rehersals is this sunday and I haven't reach perfroming standard.FUCK! I am so stress and I don't know what to do besides pulling my hair.Then one person change my way of thinking.Kai xin! At lunch today, she gave a long speech about how should a performer behave when performing.She ask what should the first thing I think of when I perform.I said play well for the audience.Then she said NONONONONONONONONONO! "You should in you mind thank the audience for coming". I was like wow...Salute to you Kai xin... should talk to her more about performing...By the way i was very impressed by Wee Kiat's perfomance yesterday.HAHA anyway our school vocalist all so good hahahaha...especially our year ones...muhahahahaha.
I am feeling abit stress now... better get back to practicing..haha see... I am still in school... and I use breaks to blog. I just hope I can do well in the competition.My other wish is to fit into this school soon...today I talked to more people haha...Eva and pamela but she like to bully me...She say I very easy to bully.Okay my fingers warm up already...byebye

Jonathan blogged at
[8:30 PM]

Today i got knocked down by a double decker bus and died.How I wish that was true.Today I woke up at ten and was preparing to go to school.I think i was still half asleep when I was picking my clothes,I mean what was I thinking?During lecture,Kai xiang said I looked funny and evelyn took out her camera which she uses to take nice and funny things.Guess which one was I under.After i got dressed i rushed to school to find a room to practice and warmup.The day I had dreaded had finally arrived.Today is performing class day,where you sit down in front of the class and perform a solo piece after which you get fired at.Isn't it exciting! I was practice in the room when Jane came in and said "didn't you see my flute on the piano?'',then i said "no?''.I got up and let her use the room because she was there first I guess and if i cause and trouble, she would have called her boyfriend to stick his trombone down or up my ****.So I was demoted to practice at a small space with no air-conditioning which was next to the stairs.After a while I could not take it and I went to find Qing lun and we went to perfroming class together.I was so freaking nervous when i was up there but no one could tell from my face because it always looks the same -_- . But unfortunately, my fear was reflected on my solo piece.While everyone thought that it was okay, I serious think I stink and its not my best and i kind of got depressed and stuff so weak.I needed a recharge.Qing lun, Jason, Jun ru, Richard and me went to drink bean curd and soya bean from a famous store.Then we starting crapping and gossiping about people in nafa.4 o'clock! time for Dr eleanor Tan's singapore arts scene lecture. While we were crossing the road qing lun pushed me and said he had safe my life and wanted something in return.Funny thing is, there was no car.Then all of us starting pushing each other stating that we had save each other until we got to the lift.The best part of Dr eleanor Tan's lecture was her first sentence.She said she cant project her voice very well today and wants to cancel class.Then I was like weeeee!But unfortunately, she went on taling for about half an hour before letting us go.Well its better then nothing.Now I really didn't know what to do I dont really like going home so early and I really had no mood to practice so a few of us went to destress.Qing lun ,Richard, Wei kang and me went to play lan games (dota). Instead of destressing I got damn fed up cause we lost two times and I think its because of me. Then Richard went for rehersals and Qing lun left. So how many people are we left with?Two me and Wei kang.We started crapping on the piano.He forced me to sing and play,but I cant.Then I called my mother to scold him over the phone.Then he got pissed and called his mother to scold me on the phone then both our mums came and fought outside nafa.Oh it was ugly,both mums lost of cause pulling most of their hair out.Then me and Wei kang started to laze around near the lift.Then Sok mun came and we all crapped around then Sok mun left and Edric came.Then Alan came, then Zheng yi came, then we all started crapping together.I think this is quite fun.Then one by one every one left and so did we.Then at 11 plus, I walked to the train station and then...I went home.What an exciting day at nafa.I still don't know alot of people in my class.Am I that scary...I really don't bite.Oh and I broke my D string on my ruan.Alan kept laughing...I wonder why...

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Jonathan blogged at
[11:52 AM]

This is my first post in my new blog. I really hope I have the time everyday to sit down and reflect on what I have done because I really need it. I am finally in NAFA(Nanyang Academy Of Fine Arts) doing music(performing). I don't know if what I have done is right for me,but something just tells me to carry on. Its my second week in this new environment and I am still trying to adapt. The only people i come in contact with are the chinese instrumentalist,those who sit in the first three rows of the right side of the lecture hall.I cant think now...history burned my brain cells...I shall carry on tommorrow...

Jonathan blogged at
[12:25 AM]